SHE'S DIFFERENT ; its ironic

2007-10-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

i am afraid right now i dont wanna let you down

and i am the one who cant be saved

the only thing i say: i am afraid right now

what if i cant get out?

what if i dont want to be saved?

this is me afraid

now theres no place like home to make me feel alone

i see you everywhere i am

and i remember how you ran out to hide

you kept me close behind

following your every move so i remember

i look for you

but i cant see your face

2007-10-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

ive been thinking, and i kinda thought too much
i really dont know what im doing but its gonna
be for good, i think? at least ill see smiles yes?
im really scared about whats gonna happen,
what im gonna become. but i already dont care
about me really. this is really silly, i feel silly now. haha
i want everyone to be happy, no more tears
but id give up with myself. ill just be really quiet
id gather my guts and pick myself up and see
where life is gonna bring me.
times when i feel like ending it shall not cross
my mind again. atleast ill try :)! thinking of death
will be really pathetic too. although i know many
many many people feels like so all the time
ill just be the plain ol' sity. no extra shines,
no loud laughing. ree,val&maine said,
'things has got to change' i think the one changing
will be me then! haha. ill still be here, ill still be the
same. ill still be listening, like always. its just gonna
be little bit more quiet.

i love you guys, this is gonna be the last from me

ill look for your eyes to keep me inside
when everything dies but one last sunrise

2007-10-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

met ree in the afternoon before their grad night
talked for awhile and sent her to school
met the boy after that. tried doing a little bit of
his math before giving up
MY Ns ARE OVER LUH ALAMAKKK
so he studied and apparently it wasnt productive, grrr

went to the place that supposedly has the "best"
oreo crush. okay, it did. the oreo crush was gooood
since he said he craved for soccer in a reallllly long
time, i took him to the street soccer court in tamp
and the boy played soccer. he/they played really good
i was just sitting, watching some awesome teenage
street soccer, eavesdropping on a bunch of mat's
conversation whos trying to figure out whether i was
chinese or malay before i realiseeeee,
'fcuk! he's suppose to be mugging!' takper, takper
we've currently become a little bit more mat and
a spice of beng. which, makes the both of us kinda
matbeng-ish. heh, random

oh, and did i mention the boy looks really hot in my heels?
yes, high heels. white high heels. fhot :)

okay, tv now. really tired
bye

2007-10-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

im feeling kinda crappy now, a lil tipsytoed, a lil
jumpy, a lil bouncy, a lil bit insane. yah huh
anw, some intruder came to my door step at 11am
in the morning, bloody hell. people sleepingggg
disturb only. tsktsk. no laaaaa, im kiddinggg
but yeah, was totally pigging the hell out
okay, so today was fun. really awesome.
tiring, but really fun&awesome
yishun with boy to catch resident evil
yes, yishun. we've come to a conclusion that the
west people are basically really, um. weird.
thats pretty much it.

im wishing Os gonna be done fast, heh
my tv's kinda screwed up and im really sad
grey's! yay. bright&shiny! ok.
goodbye.

2007-10-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

MR PRATA IS MMMMMGOOOOOD
the boy had the first Olvl practical today
and he did some silly lil thing. dont ask why
i think its just him to be silly [:
mmmoooook, bye
goodnight

and here we go again, with all the things we said

and not a minute spent to think that wed regret

so we just take it back, these words and hold our breath

forget the things we swore we meant

ill write you just to let you know that im alright

cant say im sad to see you go

~~cause im not~~

2007-10-09T14:37:00.000+08:00

and the story unfolds
she had the love she could never have. she was made the
luckiest girl in the world and still am. she didnt thought it
would come to this. but he was the best she ever had. his
touch, his fingers running down along her face. his breathing
against the skin of her neck. she could still feel it all. visions
of his face and the way he walks keeps playing in her head.
she is staring into space, starting to live in illusions. its like a
song, every word he said in every breath. he is just so awesome.
she would be lying is she said she doesnt hate him. beacause she
does. she hates him for loving her. she hates him for being so
awesome. he was the only one she could hold onto. he was the only
one she had. but everything had to crash&burn in seconds, just
when shes ready to give it all. the whole time she had with him was
simply joy and laughter. the warmth, the happiness. but nooo,
she was too busy caring about the world's feelings. she was so
selfish not to think about his feelings instead. and now that shes
ready, its just too late. too late to make it up. just, why? oh so
foolish, foolish little girl, she thought. she shouldve known
better herself. its her own fault now that shes in such deep pain.
she feels really selfish for putting him through all this. she feels
like a big blob of failure, she feels so pathetic and selfish. but
fret not, shes gonna be bright&shiny. he still makes her smile
in the simplest way. although she has that crazy little hope in her,
shes not gonna be selfish. shes not gonna let that hope eat her
heart. because she knows whats best. what she has now are just
memories. memories of what they call 'love' he was the
one that could make her happy again. he was the one that
she loved so fucking much. he was her world. every second
spent with him was gold and diamonds. he was the best, the
best she ever had. now both hearts are shattered. but she
would be the glue that pieces them alllllllll together. carvings of
his name are deep in her heart. because thats the only thing that
keeps her heart together. hes the only reason that keeps her alive.
he is the reason shes going on strong. he is the hope she wanted all
this while. he is the joy and love that she could never find again.
he is the miracle that God presented her with. he is the voice in
her heart, he is her brightest star

and she will be bright&shiny

2007-10-08T20:25:00.001+08:00

BRIGHT AND SHINY

OK?

SAY IT WITH ME:

I AM BRIGHT AND SHINY!

smile for me and so the world could see that

my superawesome macho boy is ok

2007-10-08T18:33:00.000+08:00

this time all i want is you, there is no one else

who can take your place

this time you burn me with your eyes

you see past all the lies, you take it all away

ive seen it all and its never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away, take me away

ive got nothing left to say

just take me away

i try to make my way to you, but still i feel so lost

i dont know what else i can do

ive seen it all and its never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away, take me away

ive got nothing left to say

just take me away

dont give up on me yet, dont forget who i am

i know im not there yet

but dont let me stay here alone

this time, all i want is you

there is no one else who can take your place

ive seen enough and its never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away take me away

ive got nothing left to say

just take me away take me away

2007-10-08T02:20:00.000+08:00

im so tired, of apologising to myself for you
look what youve done to me
and i tried, to forgive myself for caring about you
theres nothing i can do

look at me now
im not leaving,
im standing still
because you got me tongue tied
and im all frozen and cold
you know me well enough,
im the same ol' sunshiny-like, strong &
macho little girl. smile for me
because this is for you

2007-10-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

whered you go?

i miss you so

seem like its been forever

that youve been gone

2007-10-06T14:43:00.000+08:00

MERRY ANNIVERSARY BABY!

i love you so fucking much

2007-10-05T11:53:00.000+08:00

if you have to let it go

and these dreams keep you awake

if you have to let it go

walk away

2007-10-05T01:59:00.000+08:00

i really dont understand why people would do such things
and how people thinks of you negatively when they dont
know shit about you. and then they judge you, with whatever
theyve heard about you. gosh, thats just being plain childish
please, change. youre 16, or older. start thinking for people
atleast think about how other people would feel and not how
you feel about other people. stop being so selfish
its your damn problem that you dont have what others have
the care, the time, the love. stop being a fucking _____
what you need to do is

get a life

so long losers
im getting the fuck out of this place

2007-10-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

reply to tags
jared: you shine in my, um. closet! :D
cheryl: whats up with you and brinjals, girl! youre maddd
andddd, ive been in school? you skipped school righttttt
glory: i like ugly and unglam pictures! i think its sexy :)
and youre not flat larrrrrrrrrrrr. STOP ITTTTT. ffffftt
zatty: now youre into brinjals too!? terong women. HAHAHA!
sarah: yeah, i miss you too. okok, after ns okay! or something

2007-10-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

hello. my cousin tagged me to do this surveyyyy
so, here i am!

1. Is it cute when guys kisses you on your forehead?
-its pretty sweet (:

2. A big poofy dress or a short partydress?
-short dresses

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
-idk, depends who's it from

4. Group dates or single dates?
-both

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
-i dont hate it, i just dont like it. but im ok with it. hahaha

6. Are diamonds a girl's bestfriend?
-i dont know, im not that type
you want to try asking the diamonds?

7. Is your hair up or down today?
-up

8. Do you straighten your hair?
-nope

9. Favorite mascara?
-maybeline xxl

10. Do you get your nails done?
-sometimes

11. Small or large purses?
-hmm, large

12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
-moolah, cards, coins, and pictures of my loved ones

13. Jeans or sweats?
-jeans!

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry thats uncomfortable?
-sometimes, if i want to look pretty. HAH :D

15. Do you text message a lot?
-not really. but i use to

16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
-start thinking of names?

17. Whats your favorite color?
-ORANGE, YELLOW?

18. Heels or flats?
-flats! heh heh (nudge jared)

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
-ummmmm, yeah i think so

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
-depends on the places im heading to

21. Walmart or Target?
-shop&save

22. Do you wear collared shirts?
-yes

23. Do you like preppy boys?
-not really. but i think those who can pull it off are really cute

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best?
-nope. i prefer lip balm

25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
-UH HUH

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
-for school? the fastest was 20mins. the longest was 45mins

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
-not really. my hairs get stuck to the sticky part and
itll really hurts when i remove them

28. Do you like skater boys?
- (: do skater boys like me?

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
-all the timeeeee

30. Gold or silver?
-gold's classic. silver's young. ill say both!

31. Do you like to receive flowers?
-YES. but i would want to keep them forever

32. Do you like surfer boys?
-heh heh heh, hello hottayyyy

33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
-not all the time

34. Do you like to wear dresses?
-dresses are pretty. i wear dresses, but not often

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
-they dont confuse me. they confuse themselves

36. In the last 48 hours have you hungout with a guy?
-the boyfriend <3

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
-haha, no

38. Do you like to hold hands?
-yes, i do. especially his

39. What is the youngest you would date?
-16!

40. What is the oldest you would date?
-not more than 4 years my senior, thank you

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
-in order: fashion sense, eyes, smiles, dimples(thats IF he has any)

42. Is it hot when guys sweat?
-hahahahahahah. imagine a fat guy sweating, is it hot?

43. What is the best feature in a guy?
-character

44. Do you like making eye contact?
-i dont know. i stare/stone a lot

45. Would you kill for chocolate?
-sometimes (:

46. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
-hah hah hah

47. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
-10! :D

48. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
-ahaha, sometimes

49. Do you yell a lot?
-nah, i shout and burp alot

50. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
-sweatpants

51. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
-NO. omgod, thats pathetic

52. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
-haha, i use to

53. What makeup could you not live w/out?
-eyeliner and concealer

54. Do you fall in love easily?
-i dont know. i think i do

56. Do you think you have the bestestfriend ever?
-i have the bestest bunch of friends ever

okay, done cousin! i hope youre happy now
sheesh. anyway, thanks for the good luck
wishes everyoneee. you guys study hard too ok!
LOVE YALL TO BITS! now, back to studyingggg
all the way you guys! itll be over sooooon, JIA YOU!

this is it, today. cheer up boyfriend!
ykily, thanks for everything <3

2007-09-28T20:43:00.000+08:00

hello all, young, old, tall, short, fat, thin
okay, thats stupid. anyway, results wassssss. okay?
the fact that i didnt really study for prelims :)
other than that, the week's been reallyyyy. um, fun
haha, spent the wholeeee week with the boyfriend
except tuesday. tuesday was shopping day!
the boy's been feeling like crap. like really
but its okay! ok? everything will be fine alrightttt
youve got me. and, youre gonna study REALLY HARD
for the big Os! remember what i sayyy
they only want to bring you down because they think that
theyre right and know you cant do it. but i know you can :)
ps: i. do. not. do. stupid. things. you. goondong!

i cant believe i missed greys. i feel so depress
now i have to wait for another wholeee week D:
but the nanny diaries was good! i like it, haha

and today was just awesome
ilysmb!

we watch the season

pull up its own stakes

and catch the last weekend

of the last week

before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced

another sun soaked season fades away

you have stolen my heart

♥♥♥♥♥

2007-09-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

ive been watching roswell, onetreehill
and desperate housewives from ytube for the past five hours
rugrats is on now!
havent start studying for today.
didnt go to school today.
yesterday was crap,
slept at 4 and woke up at 8, again
murder. me.
yay

2007-09-26T04:00:00.000+08:00

IVE LOST FAITH

2007-09-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN CHRISTOPHER!

2007-09-24T16:03:00.000+08:00

REE! i know youve been waitingggg for this

here are the pictures, just as promised (:

ive compiled some of them because theres too many.

starting with the oldest to the most recent event,

here are the ones when we caught a vacant affair at scape youthpark

i like this! :D

we saw sarah, ronald & alvin there!
and a hell load more people
and then i saw holly, haaaaaaa :)

these are from the day we watched a vacant affair's
short performance outside heeren

HEH HEH HEH
i like this (:

hello matt

B-C-C-F!

spongebob tote&hot pink tights

HAHAA!

that day was mad, but i liked it :)

so here are the pictures from sentosa

ree says cover your eyes. ill say, check her out :)

archie joined us after that

hello unglam

she chose archie over me D:

classic

sun-kissed (:

food from the tummyyyy :D

sexay ladayyyyy

thats gloria's pokki

without pokki!
shakayyy and,

i was wearing a tube. please, thank you

THERE YOU GO!

thats all that ive promised
(:

2007-09-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

i dont remember how all of it brought me to this

but im sure it got me into a big mess
then he tells me its okay and that we'll do it together

and now hes the only one ive got

(and a few other people of course)

he understands me and says the right things

i cant believe i ever thought of giving him up, shoot me

ive open up my heart and said so much yet i want to tell him more

im already running out of words

this is just crazy, ive become too attached
i can go on forever about how much he means to me

hes not just some guy i met recently

hes more than that, hes my world

hes holding my heart now because he stole it

he makes my day right all the time even when it sucks so bad

he makes me laugh at his dumb jokes and

then make me look stupid after that

hes a big part of me, hes becoming like me

i feel so guilty for using so much fword

now that hes starting to sound just like me

we do the craziest things and never get caught

we'll dance in the middle of the road and not care about others

we can talk about evrything and anything under the sun

he lifts me up my feet and makes me happy

now, am i the luckiest girl or what

i love you baby

♥♥♥♥♥

2007-09-23T03:02:00.000+08:00

its exactly 3am now and im feeling VERY high

boyfriend's over the phone and hes worried. nyahaha

he came over to watch lizzie mcguire movie

and he got terrified by my sister. who wouldnt

he left like hours ago and i got bored again

anyway, ive been laughing for the past half hour

looking at stupid comic strips and whateverhaveyou

here's one!

ahahah, thats madness :D
goodnight/goodmorning all

2007-09-22T10:00:00.000+08:00

sorry! i was really tired last night D:
sentosa wassssss, FUN!
despite the sun which was totally NOT making us tan
it was a good day. a good, relaxed, lazy day
when over to the party for awhile then we had to leave
the huts at sentosa are pretty cozy
bumped into mel&mudd when we're on our way home
theyre so full of shit. WE MISS YOU LOSERS LAAA
and ree wore a really REALLY short, hot skirt
nyahahahaha. fking hot. i think im obsessed with her
ok, no. im not. but she says im obsessed with bodies
now, maybe i am. HAH. pictures will be up! I PROMISE!
just wait. one entry and itll allllll be pictures, OK REE!

and. i. dont. know. what. im. gonna. do. today.
i. am. bored. like. the. uncle. at. the. mama. shop.

2007-09-21T13:41:00.000+08:00

hello world
dinner at simpang with the boyfriend yesterday
we totally had too much fooooood
lesson learned: roti john is damn good. and. filling.
i like walking aimlessly towards nowhere looking
at nice houses and clear skies with bright stars
with, the most awesome person ive ever met
and i knowww how the world is now but,
i have everything thats pulling me and keeping me
up. hes holding my hands, keeping me strong
how am i suppose to let go when hes all that ive got
and i dont want to let go. im not letting go

HELLO, im screming. iloveyou!

sentosa with ree now. im gonna get ready
blog tonight! so long

2007-09-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

hello. im bored
greys anatomy's gonna be on soon :D
im really really really boredddd
and currently, im stuck to new found glory's
yay.
this. is. a. very. short. post
GREY'S ANATOMY!
goodbye

2007-09-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

nevermind the time or the spinning of your head

i could tell my life was changing,

since the minute i met you

and if i stop ever thinking of you,

id probably choke on the words i never said

and if i stop ever thinking of you,

id bury my heart and fall back in my bed

i will never tell you this,

but im scared of falling apart

it may seem like im holding it together

but the weather is making it hard

(L)

2007-09-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

hello. i havent blogged since ancient times :D
why? because my laptops being a bitch
that sounded really silly but whatever
there are TONSSS of pictures to upload!
and i shall upload them when the laptops less bitchy
randomly went over to the boyfriends place yesterday
and. walked. around. the. estate. aimlessly.
God knows why i was being sooooo annoying yesterday
and i swear i know your area so much better than you now
they should totally invent bras for moobs
its pretty unsightly to jog around trying to look all hot
with those things bouncing all over the place. tsktsk
got really pissy at night, realllyyyyy mad
like really @@##$&*%#*@%!!!! but whatever
i dont give a fuckkkk, right? im still sane (:

my boyfriend is mad, idiotic, psycho, weird and gay
but i. still. love. him. and hes getting the best of me

im really pissed off right now
sister's really getting on my nerves that i can hang myself
with my veins.

tomorrow's wednesday. school starts late on wednesdays
meaning, i can sleep in tomorrow
yay.
goodnight.

2007-09-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

they shouldnt have invented the snooze button
so today, mother got transferred. shes getting better (:
shes still under observationnnn. and,
she was asking about the boyfriend, heh

mom: where did you find this boy?
me: at a sale (:
mom: im serious siti
me: im serious too. 70% off. you want one?
mom: (takes drip wire) ill strangle you with this
me: haha! its a looooong story, you wont understand. eat your food
mom: then tell me the story! im bored
me: whattt, im lazyyyyy. one day i will
mom: but i might not be in a hospital anymore

T_T i was like, wthell? i think the medications getting to her head.
shes being weirdddd

anywayyyy. town after that with ree♥
town is full of hotass shit people. fking hotttttt!
oh, and i get depress seeing hot girls
i. should. stop. checking. girls. out D: !
fried mars barsssssssss. im addicted to fatty food
and oh-my-god! you cant believe the amount of food i had
i couldnt stop eating (feels fat tummmmmmy)
we didnt get to catch ava ): they were only gonna start
playing at 9pm and ree had to leave
we might be going to catch them tomorrow instead
i feel so lethargic now. i got flexis on the way home :D
pictures will be up in a bit!

hello boyfrienddd, IMYLACMHB
hah. go figure

you left me hanging,
now ive got nothing else to say

2007-09-15T04:02:00.000+08:00

this is really crazy. really really mad

i never thought id fall so bad

i cant believe im actually runnning out of words

im never like this

never so weak, so fragile, so sensitive

i can never say enough

so what does this mean right now?

this means so much that i cant find the right words

and im sorry, this wasnt easy

im sorry i had to drag you into this

i really dont know what else id do

but i know one thing for sure

and thats iloveyou

ive never been so sure about something so much

so many things matter to me right now

and you,

you just stole a whole big part of my heart

i♥you, boy

2007-09-14T01:12:00.000+08:00

the boy was over in the afternoon (:
and then, dinner! we suck at deciding what/where to eat
walked that bum home with manymany mosquito bites
moooomays in the hospital ): im not going to school tomorrow
this is so frustrating, im still sick damn itttt but ill take care of mom
someones being annoying over the phone (screams: GO TO BED!)
its exactly 2am now (yawns: im tired)
ok, you know what. everything around is just bullshit
goodnight

from heart and soul to pen and paper

2007-09-13T12:00:00.000+08:00

ive started studying for geog and f&n
call me crazy but im reaaalllllllllyy scared
i have exactly 2 weeks and four days left till levels
yayyyy T_T

oh, and i didnt go to school today by the way
i overslepttttt. and, i havent recovered since sunday
i am feeling better. but im still having head pains
thought it might be good if i stayed home
but no, im all alone and im really bored now
i feel like doing something mad/mean (looks at cat) heh heh
ulgh, its sleeping like a cow. fft!

theres gonna be really good shows on tv these days
little secrets - 15th spetember
constantine! - 23rd september

pictures from a few days back!

SAW LOSERSSS

pout!

hell cute, this girl was in red skinnies!
(yes, its a girl)

check out the ears
HAH HAH HAHAHAHAHAH!

oh, and ree have this really cool foot carpet at her house!
really cool ah, haha

yay. im feeling random
and, hurt
goodbye
so this is how it goes

2007-09-12T20:07:00.000+08:00

now my tomodachi and mooomay is sick!
plus a few other boys in class whos sneeezing away
D: i feel so bad, ive spread the damn virus
i hope youve not fallen sick!
GET WELL SOON AFFECTED PEOPLE!

i shall not talk about school. its mad cow
went over to rees after school
thought of crashing at her place but noooo, moomay didnt allow
she says its not nice to crash last minute. and that im sick -.-
but its just five minutes walk away from home! sheeeesh
itsokay! i got to see matty tuppen anyways, HAH
mother says i can crash at her place one of these days
which is. God knows when. fffffffffffttt

why cant i just have them all? im selfish. i want them all
i want them all to myself

so this is the way that i say i need you

this is the way that i say i love you

this is the way that i say im yours

this is the way(this is the way)

that im learning to breathe, im learning to crawl

im finding that you and you alone can break my fall

im living again, awake and alive

im dying to breathe in these abundant skies

yes, im dying to breathe in these abundant skies

J♥

2007-09-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

so school was fucked today as usual. and it was realllllly cold
slept in class like a damn buffalo, did it rain? or was i dreaming?
lesson learnt: bring a damn jacket to school if youre not feeling well
since nlevels for some subjects are done with, its basically
independent mugging like mad in class now

fever is subsiding and people around me are falling ill
sorry my tomodachi!! i hope youll feel better soon. i love you girl

my laptop is being a bitch cause it always gets disconnected
i cant even talk/surf the net/blog in peace

i got to see sarah for awhileeeee. at kfc in tampines
someone screwed math paper. so i thought itll be nice to cheer him up
met the boy at tampines and accompanied him home
went over and did crazy lil things. like, mad yo
his dogs are the bomb! theyre adorable. neighbour's dog is a total bull tho
remember this day, september eleventh
ill see you in my dreams. LY!

2007-09-10T23:49:00.001+08:00

school was total bullshit today
lessons were damnnnn slack. my mind was barely in class
temperature was rising like mad
didnt want to go home half way because i didnt want to miss poa.
but mdm zaibon didnt come. oh yay, ffft
ate a whole load of panadol and lozenges
i should just die of drug overdose

went home after school and stoned with a spinning head
received a call and he did something really mad
he came all the way just to check on me
and no hes not the medication. i am his drug
hes probably killing himself with books right about now
dont die just yet okay. i want to see you again
and id die just to see those eyes

watched romeo&juliet over the laptop for the gazzillionth time
i need to stop eating chocolates, I SHOULD BE THE ONE DYING
so this is how we are now

2007-09-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

im having mixed emotions right now
took a really long time to figure things out
i really dont have the mood to go back to school
tomorrow because im sick and dying
ate a damn load of chocolates
and now my throats killing me, hurts like hell
but whatever
i need to fucking get the hell out of this place
my heart feels as though it has just been put into a
meat mincing machine. fabulous
goodbye

2007-09-09T11:49:00.000+08:00

and all i can taste is this moment,

and all i can breathe is your life

~~cause sooner or later its over~~

i just dont want to miss you tonight

youve got the best of me

ill wait forever to go back to where we were

just you, me and the planes

i wanna tell the world how much i care about you

and how much id love seeing you smile again

i dont know what ive put myself into

im pretty much disturbed. i really dont want to break hearts

is this what they call love?

because im feeling more than that

its been a really long time since someone made me feel so special

he makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world

he makes every damn second of the goddam day awesome

he makes me laugh at the slightest dumb thing he does

he holds me exactly when i want him to

his hands against mine

he drives me crazy

this boy, hes pretty special

imissyou damn it

now thats a whole load of mushy things

and you cant believe how gay i feel right now

2007-09-09T07:45:00.000+08:00

hello new layout, the pictures are so attractive (:
hahahahaha. my blog looks so cheesy now. ok,
its sunday and the holidays are over. well, almost
it felt like it didnt start at all. ok, no
ive had LOADS of sleep and ive been going out, alot
since the last paper on wednesday. still,
the hols feels soooo short

anyway, went for a tan and i got overburnt. again
went for a gig with sarahhh and the crowd werent awesome
went for a gig last night with baby G and the crowd was just. _____
whats happening? we miss baybeats & singfest so much
that very oh so awesome feeling ):
my laptops getting on my last nerve and i feel like
throwing it out the window. then again, NOOO
i wont throw my second lover away (:
this week's been prettyyyy. insane
i dont know what ive put myself into
heh, goodbye
im gonna continue sleeping

2007-09-06T02:22:00.000+08:00

today was just beyond awesome

but it was pretty darn painful

i just wish all of it was a goddam dream

i dont want to talk about it

ive had a really loooooong day

and.

im tired.

physically. mentally. emotionally.

brightest little firefly in my jar

2007-09-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday was.
well, random. amazing. special. emotional. weird.
hot. awesome. lovely. wonderful. difficult. painful.
wet. passionate. tiring. honest. funny. irresistible.
i dont know what else to say
youre too lovely and im lost for words

todays papers were, okay. manageable. im so scared
really. its already scary enough having to sit at the
first two from the front. i hope i can really do this, YES
tomorrows mt listening comprehension and social studies
wednesdays english and then im done for the week!
nlevels continues on the 1st of october and ends on the 8th
i cant wait for all this to end. its gonne be real soooon. REN!

youre one i wouldnt want to lose but to hold on to
please tell me you wont leave, promise me

2007-09-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

slept at 4am, woke up at 8am today. woweee
i. am. really. bored. ive been studying, alot
levels are this coming week, ffft.
oh look! i just recieved a survey.
lets do it. hmmm

INTRUDUCTION:
Full Name: siti khairiah lubis
Birthday: 22 February 1991
Birthplace: singapore
Eye Color: dark brown/black
Hair Color: black
Height: 168.5cm ):
Weight: im not tellingggg
Right handed or Left handed? right
Your Heritage: malay/indonesian
My Worst Habit: staring
Zodiac Sign: pisces
Shoe Size: 8 0r 9 (shut up, dont laugh)
The Footwear You Wore Today: birks/sneakers
Your Weakness: getting too attached easily
Your Fears: losing them
Your Perfect Pizza: hawaiian (:
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: omgod/wthell!
Thoughts First Waking Up: what time is it? am i still alive?
Your Best Physical Feature: shoulders
Your Bedtime: it changes. omgod, doesnt yours!!?
Your Most Missed Memory: being inlove

MY FAVORITES:
Favorite color?
-orange, black, white
Food?
-carls junior
Sport?
-netball!! (: tennis, soccer, basketball, swimming
Animal?
-HORSES
Ice Cream?
-ben&jerry's
Candy?
-FLEXIS :D
Store?
-theres so manyyyyyyy. GAWD
Salad Dressing?
-i dont like salad
Actor/Actress?
-orlando bloom, chad murray, jessica alba, jenn garner
Movie?
-romeo&juliet
Singer/Band?
-its a long list boy
Letter?
-none
Number?
-im changing
Holiday?
-christmas break! (:
Season?
-summer!
Toothpaste Flavor?
-mint
Perfume?
-hugo boss
Body part on the opposite sex?
-what in the world of mother earth!

FRIENDS AND LIFE:
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?
-someone awesome
How Do You Want To Die?
-quiet, peacefully
Turn ons:
-good fashion sense, confortable to talk to, same music interest
Turn offs:
-noisy, attention seeking, hypocrites, loud people
Who's The Loudest?
-my dear junior, kim jamie (but you dont turn me off darl.
not that you turn me on either la. omgod, argh!)
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?
-my awesome friends. regardless who. theyre all awesome
Who Have You Known The Longest?
-oh my, i dont know. um, CHERYL KOH
Who's The Shyist?
-gloria lim wei!!
When Have You Cried The Most?
-recently
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?
-having to love, and be loved in return
Worst Feeling?
-knowing everything yet things arent happening
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?
-in a house i design
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?
-i seriously havent thought of that

HAVE YOU EVER:
Been In Love?
-what is love?
Been Rejected?
-i dont do anything about how i feel
Ran Away From Home?
-not literally
Pictured Your Crush Naked?
-i never thought of that. maybe i should. HAW
Skipped School?
-yes
Thought About Suicide?
-im not so emo la dehh
Slept Outside?
-wheres outside? camps?
Laughed So Hard You Cried?
-hell yeah
Cried In School?
-uh huh
Thrown Up In School?
-yes
Wanted To Be a Model?
-how i wish
Cheated On Someone?
-NO. (but i got cheated! grr)
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?
-YES
Seen A Dead Body?
-duh
Drank Alcohol?
-nope
Smoked?
-yes
Been On Drugs?
-you are my heroine
Eaten Sushi?
-mm mm mm yummmy
Been On Stage?
-yes
Gone Skinny Dipping?
-nope
Shoplifted?
nope
Been Drunk?
nope
Been Beaten Up?
-i dont have a choice now do i (i have a. fleshy, sister)

DO YOU:
Sing Well?
- i cant sing
Shower Daily?
-no no, i dont -.- (gawd, whada question)
Want To Go To College?
-i prefer polytechnics
Want To Get Married?
-someday
Believe In Yourself?
-not all the time )':
Get Motion Sickness?
-sometimes
Think You Are Attractive?
-yes, im soooo hot. too hot for you T.T
Get Along With Your Parents?
-yes
Like Thunderstorms?
-no. it scares me ):
Play An Instrument?
-i use to be able to play the guitar
Pray?
-all the time
Go To Church?
-nope
Sleep With Stuffed Animals?
-nahh
Keep A Journal/Diary?
-yes ( :
Dance In The Rain?
-mmhmm
Sing In The Shower?
-shit, yes!

THIS OR THAT:
Pepsi or Coke?
-coke
McDonald's or Burger King?
-none
Single or Group Dates?
-both
Chocolate or Vanilla?
-bothboth!
Strawberries or Blueberries?
-blueberries
Meat or Veggies?
-meat
TV or Movie?
-movie
Guitars or Drums?
-both (:
Adidas or Nike?
-both
Chinese or Mexican?
-mexican
Cheerios or Corn Flakes?
-honey stars
Cake or Pie?
-pie
MTV or VH1?
-mtv
Blind or Deaf?
-deaf
Boxers or Briefs?
-boxers

CAN YOU:
Do Splits?
-yes, haha!
Write With Both Hands?
-yes, but i write ugly with my left hand
Whistle?
-YES (stares at g!)
Blow A Bubble?
-duh. who cant!
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?
-yesssss
Cross Your Eyes?
-yes!
Walk With Your Toes Curled?
-sometimes [:
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?
-ive tried but failed
Dance?
-yes. but not awesome
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry?
-hah hah hah, sometimes

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON:
You Touched:
-my fat sister
You Talked To On The Phone:
-mommmy
You Text:
-wonderboy!
You Instant Messaged:
-roxaneeee
You Hugged:
-gloria!
You Yelled At:
-my cat :/
You Played A Sport With:
-i went swimming in the morning. alone. omgod, saddd

WHAT'S THE LAST:
Time You Laughed?
-exactly 5hours ago
Time You Cried?
-last night
Movie You Watched?
-RATATOUILLEEEEE
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?
-mint
Joke You Told?
-whats the similarity between 1+1 and your left hand?
Song You've Sung?
-why cant i -liz phair

RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT:
Where Are You?
-in my room
What Can You See Out Your Window?
-pretty lights aligning the roadsides
Are You Listening To Music?
-yes
What Are You Wearing?
-oversized tee and fbt
What's On Your Mousepad?
-i dont use a mousepad

BELIEFS:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?
-noooo
Do you believe in miracles?
-of course i do
Magic?
-nahh
Love at first sight?
-i dont know, sometimes
God?
-YES (:
Satan?
-hes somewhere
Ghosts?
-they exist
Santa Claus?
-haha, nahhh (:
Evolution?
-nope

IN A BOY:
Fav Eye Color:
-doesnt really matter
Fav Hair Color:
-jack black
Short or Long Hair:
-awesome hair
Height:
-170 - 180
Weight:
-as long as hes the heavier one
Best Clothing Style:
-(wonders) whatever that looks hot

RANDOM:
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?
-hawaii, new york, paris, california
Number Of CD's I Own:
-theres so many!
Your Good Luck Charm:
-i should have one now s houldt i? (hmm)
How many pillows do you sleep with:
-one and a bolster
Do you drink milk:
-NO
Person You Hate Most:
-i dont hate
Do you think God has a gender?
-nope
Where do you think we go when we die?
-to heaven! (:
How many rings until you answer the phone?
-my ringtone is a song
Are you a health freak?
-not really. no. idontknow
What is the worst weather?
-raining season ):
Did you play with Barbies as a child?
-yea, sort of
How many grades have you failed?
-i havent and i dont intend to
what was the least you wore at home?
-sports bra with fbt

ok. so i went out in the afternoon say around 4pm
to meet the girls. went to catch ratatouille with
sinlg3s and colin. twas good. but i kinda fell asleep
at some parts. you cant blame me,
i didnt have enough sleep you knowww
~~pictures will be up in a bit!~~
pictures are up! [/edited] please visit roxys eljay
thats, if, youre interested to. look at ME. HAH HAH
3ed back home and was really tired
studied a bit more and here i am now. im tired
ill just lie down and wait for my eyes to shut

imy wonderboy!
i miss you quite terribly

2007-09-01T03:00:00.000+08:00

its 3AM now and i still cant sleep
this is mad
i think its time that i do something to my hair
but i dont know what!
i miss my fuckingly-super-long hair,
i miss my concave-liked-short hair,
i miss my bangs, i miss my layers
should i just cut my hair?
or should i keep em?

should i:

#1 cut it short

#2 layer it

#3 trim it?

#4 or just keep it

2007-08-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

i think this year suck. i think everyones in a
bad mood today. i think i can sit and talk
about facts and REAL things with people
who are willing to share and listen all day
i think im talking too much
i should just shut up and isolate myself
i need to hibernate.

went to tm today after school for evan almighty
i think its kinda nice/cool. whatver
i like listening to peoples thoughts
i like listening to how they feel
had a heart to heart talk with maine love
i guess both of us totally have different
perception of others. i like long talks where you
can reallllly say what you think/feel
i like sharing

but
i think im selfish.
i think im mean.
i think i have the worst of mood swings.
i think im horrible.
i think im bad.
i think i hate myself.
i think im the worst person ever.

i think whatever i think is true. and i think i
am whatever i think. i feel that i am

i really needed you

im off
hibernate.
goodbye

2007-08-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

i love everything about today & ilyou
i thought about it and i hate hiding you too
why the hell am i talking in rhymes
okay. so school today was just bad
i miss the girls so much )':
i feel like a retard just crying to myself
hah hah hah. crazy girl

just like a star across my sky
just like an angel off the page
just like a song in my heart (L)

2007-08-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

ill be a tissue when you cant stop crying
ill be a shoulder when you feel like dying
ill always listen when you have something to say
ill be a week when you need a day
ill be a crutch when you have a brokenheart
ill be a glue when everything falls apart
ill be the sun when the rain just wont stop
ill be a phone call when you cant leave your home
ill be a hand when you feel all alone
ill be the wings if you want to fly
ill understand without knowing why
ill be an ear for a secret to tell
ill be an aspirin when your head hurts like hell
ill give the love that ill never let go
ill always be here and i want you to know
xxxooo;

2007-08-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

why are you so affected?

i didnt point it out in your face, fuck

its still the way youre thinking

still the same;

childish and petty

2007-08-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

the departure is playing in my head now
AND
n levels are next week
oh yay.

i feel pressure
i feel like a nerd
i feel that whatever ive been studying aint enough
i feel that im wasting my time
i feel stupid
i feel that im too nice
i feel angry
i feel unappreciated
i feel so sad
i feel lost
i feel cheated
i feel like a mood for gigs
i feel like a a spoilt brat whining like a bitch
i feel like a loser
i feel im about to break
i feel like crying
right. about. now

2007-08-28T12:59:00.000+08:00

wasssssssssup yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllll!
im back! like it or not. HAH
its 1 minute to one and im really tired D:
ANYWAY,
went to visit momma's relatives anddddd
we did so many fucking awesome shitss in kl BUT shop
HAH HAH HAH (pats shoulder) well done sity!
ok, maybe i did shop. like, a fraction! i didnt want to get
anything, yes. and, I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO GET
heck, im going back. idontcare! heh heh :]

but, i cant stand the sight of kl at some point of time.
we were at that exact same spot, right infront of the twin
towers. where you&i were. like, THERE.
telling each other things we actually didnt mean
no wait. i know i meant what i said, did you?
HAH, whatvr
it also reminds me that when someone says
"ill treasure the moments ive had with you now&later"
it also means,
"hello, i made a mistake. i was just making use of you"

sity oh sity, youre so stupid. why be so gullible. tsktsktsk!
ahh, fuck this shit (runs away and hides at the corner)
fuck emo laaaaaa. STUPID.
im a happpy girl now :D seeeeee!
besides, i do have an AWESOME boyfriend.
right? hurhurhur :)

FINALLY,
pictures will be up in a bit.
the pictures are only from day1 & a lil from day2
why? because sister forgot to charge the damn camera

and roxy darling, they didnt have the colourfulcolourful
ones only in YELLOW or GOLD. sorry babe.
GO STATES AND FIND LA
you nehneh, PANG SEH! FFFFFFFFTTTTTT.
and i miss you too bitch

2007-08-25T13:18:00.000+08:00

ive been thinkingggg, i suck. shoot me! i hate getting attached to people easily i hate it because i wouldnt want them to leave. everyones gonna leave me this year. FFFFFFF! D:
anyway, ive had four cups of bubble tea yesterday and now i feel like a blob of sweet water fish tank. i want to say sooooo many thingsssss. but i cant ): idiot la! fffffft. im frustrated, yes i am. grrrr. and that just makes my blog post alot shorter. now i have nothing to say! okok, i have. IM GOING TO MALAYSIAAAA.
yayyyy! (jumps around) shit la. its still short. ah whatever.

im off!
goodbye

2007-08-24T16:38:00.000+08:00

hello. im bored. prelims are. over. PRELIMS ARE OVER. like, FUCKING HELL YEAH!! :D but noooo. no partying because Ns are three weeks away. woohooo (waves white flag) and my heads spinningggggg. i feel like a, whaya call that thing? the cousin of yoyo. the one that rolls around on the floor. the malay word is gasing. yes, i feel like that. bahhhhhh

ok, so back to being bored. IM LIKE BORED. but im going to malaysia tomorrow! YAYYYEE. bahahah! im gonna leave allllllll of you. wahahah.

hey boyfriend! this is for you

omgod, tell me im awesome O:) HAH HAH

2007-08-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

i cant believe prelims are over. well, almost. LAST PAPER TOMORROW, f&n. oh wow, 15 chapters. i hope the starving, staying up and waking up in the middle of the night/morning to study for the past two weeks would at least do me some good. BeautyBeyondBorders's finals was, not bad. well done guys. jiannnnn, watch your pitchhh. oh well, you did your best! :) results wasnt posted today. dont know when. I MISS WATCHING SOL/THREE WAYYYY D: school invasions gotta happen in haising! and im sickkkkkk. thank you roxane wee! nyahaha. i shall cover myself with my thick quilt and prisonbreak. (sets reminder) wake up at 3am, YES!

you are calm and reposed,

let your beauty unfold

pale white like the skin,

stretched over your bones

spring keeps you ever close,

you are second hand smoke

you are so fragile and thin,

standing trial for your sins

holding onto yourself the best you can

you are the smell before the rain

you are the blood in my veins

ps, i dont hate you

2007-08-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

hi. so todays emaths paper2 and geog

it was ooookay, but not awesome. i got stucked and panicked in the mids of it & nothing could make me feel better. but wonderboy did! never fail to. so, thank you my favourite emoboy

talentime finals today. 4e3 was awsome, kudos! but i screwed some parts uppp, which was somewhere in the middle D: if youre lucky enough, you can visit roxys blog to check out the vids she recorded. oh, and enjoy watching how badly i screwed. but i doubt youre that lucky tho. results are in tomorrow. BeautyBeyondBorder is gonna be playing tmrw for Ttime partII, GOOD LUCK BOYS!

papers tmrw: combine science
thus ending school at 11:20AM! woohoo, praise God

GREY'S ANATOMY NOW!
but someones not back yet to watch with me D:

i miss seeing the smile on your face, boyfriend
heads up! this hundredth is for you

2007-08-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

from dust to dawn, and eternity beyond

when sitys not ok, what does she do? :
resort her time&love to someone who needs it more than anybody else.
apperently thats the only time she feels appreciated and because thats the only reason that keeps her going. youre the only reason that keeps me strong. and seeing you killing yourself kills me. he asked: why cant life be like you? so perfect. shes wondering to herself whether her life is that perfect. (after approximately 3mins) no, its not.

geography prelims, talentime tmrw
AMEN!

ill be the one, to hold you
and make sure that youll be alright

2007-08-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

fucking bitch la bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch!
i bet you you dont even care because you know youre a bitch yourself. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!? NO MORAL OR WHAT? PARENTS NEVER TEACH YOU IS IT? your parents doesnt provide you with a good upbringing is it? tsktsk. poor girl. but really, we dont bitch about you, so what right do you have to bitch about us. ok, wrong. you have every right to bitch. girls bitch. but its not like WE DONT TREAT YOU AS A FRIEND. youre a friend to us, and we DONT talk about you like youre a slut. WE DONT BITCH ABOUT YOU. we dont decriminate, we dont call you um, whats that called, a POSER. please la. everyones a poser. youre a poser too in fact. you werent like that WHEN YOU WERE BORN. music is for you to listen, enjoy and appreciate dammit. its not for you to judge others. yala yala. the guys from a7x also pose you la okay. why? because they listen to alesana too. and when YOURE SO FAT, YOU DO NOT CALL OTHERS FAT. YOURE SO UGLY, YOURE SO FAKE. YOU SHOULD JUST FUCK AROUND GET AIDS AND DIE.

2007-08-20T15:54:00.000+08:00

im tired
im losing weight
msns fucked up
my laptops being a bitch
prelims sucks
i miss my boy lollipop
i want to be a caterpillar stuck in a coccoon
study hard all!
bye.

2007-08-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

drop it like its hotttt, drop it like its hotttt
its 1230AM and im high. highhhh i tell youuu. highhh. you know whats HIGH? high means you go crazy and jump around the house like a freak-o! and im crapping. HAH. and why didnt anyone tell me that it was originally hai sinS catholic? ffft. oh, and its normal that your cat snores. so i guess my cats pretty normal. i thought it might just be as weird as me. HAHA. okay. im still high. you know what makes me high? coffee. and you know what, i didnt know singapore's starbucks are wayyyy better than the one in godknowswherehestays. oookay, sity needs to shut up. im gonna be a zombie in school tomorrow. PRELIMS ARE HERE. how awesome is that. well, actually not.

and im gonna write a song titled,
understand love grows honest
dont you think it sounds good? i think it sounds really nice :) and im sorry i had to leaveee. i am pretty upset but really, havent you thought about it? just tell me you dont love me anymore and itll all be okay

ok. i feel like a potato now.
goodbye

2007-08-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

the many random things i did today:
I
#1 went to the rooftop to check out the town, having the urge to scream
#2 went cycling/skating with rox
#3 talked about a whole lotta stuff
#4 continued to cycle on my own
#5 walked back really slow
#6 talked to sarah over the phone because we havent caught up since GKW
#7 made my cat look like a complete clown
#8 someone whos pretty confused called about flying pigs
#9 wished i had been shot down like THE flying pig
#10 watched romeo&juliet on dvd with surround sound IN MY ROOM

i feel like murdering someone and i think the first ill murder is you. i need to go for strabucks one of these days and drink gallons of coffee. coffee is like drug. i need to stop thinking loads and i think the worlds turning against me. one by one, the fucked up scenes are popping like a virused computer and theres nothing i can do but to just let it happen. which is, making me feel like a zombiefied loser. and you, i think we should stop talking since everythings falling into place pretty nicely for you. give me a reason not to love you

goodnight awesome(s)

2007-08-18T16:24:00.000+08:00

ive just had two bars of chocolates, three packets of flexis, a few spoons of b&j, a bag of sour cream & onion lays, two bags of m&ms, one chocolate waffle, chocolate brownie, a couple centimetres of cadbury dark chocolate and banana fritters. and now i feel like my tummys gonna explode anytime soon. i dont care if im gonna get diabetes and die. im really mad and id seriously kill anyone if they talk to me right now. anyway, ill tell you something, kid. me being good to you does not mean you can step all over my head. you do not use my name to get out of troubles and then tell me to figure out something to tell your parents. and you do not use my name to spread rumours that you made up on your own. you do not bitch about someone that you dont even know whether your thoughts are right and then say, "oh, SITI told me that" you know what you seriously need to do. you need to get the fucking life with your fucking good friends who you obviously dont know what theyre turning you into. youre so shallow and fake now. talk about personality. youre sucha twoface who i really cannot tolerate anymore. i have my limits

2007-08-18T12:33:00.000+08:00

why hello world!
i. am. gonna. stay. home. today. YES. and thats because im not allowed out. no, i am allowed! only that i had to tell mum that i dont feel like going out today SO she expects me to be home now, BAH.

NEW LAYOUT! yayyyy. now its pink -.- a little. its sooooo, girl. but i like it! ;D i like everything except for the pink part(s) its kinda screwed up because some of my post cant be seen. and i still need to get a TAGBOARD :/

ok, so ive started on mathhhh. i still have LOADS of things im not sure about. but i can do this! YES. (motivation, motivation) and, i manage to do accounts on my own! im so proud of myself :D
i need to brush up combine science and im all good. because the rest of the subjects are language based and f&n. OMGOD F&N! F&NF&NF&N! theres like 15 chapters.. CHAPTERS! NOT TOPICS. holyyyyy D:

(ok, calm down sity) ANYWAY i was just reading some ads on the net and magazines and i cant help but to be disgusted by all the fucking hunters whos fucking killing all the animals to meet their hungry and selfish wantings. STOP KILLING ANIMALS DAMMIT!! imagine the animals killing your family members! okay, no. bad example. but still! you haveeee to stop killing them. they have a family too. it needs to survive. its facing extinction all because of people like youuuu. GAWD, im so annoyed. can you imagine, hunting are still going on now. i know without killing the animals, where do you get food. but you DO NOT kill animals for their FUR. or their TUSK. ooooomgod. annoying fucking heartless piece(s) of shit who doesnt think AT ALL. and to the people who are treating your pets or animals like crap*, PLEASE SEND THEM TO SPCA IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO TAKE CARE OF THEM
*define crap:
you hit them
you kick them
you spit at them
you ABUSE them
not giving love & attention
being nonsensical & doing funny things to your pet

im so naggy. HAH! but its gooood kinda naggy.
oh and MARTYN, is it normal for your cat to snore?
ok. im off. workworkwork

2007-08-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

hello. i dont know what to blog about. and, im too lazy/tired/exhausted/frustrated/annoyed to blog. but for the benefit of others, I WILL! im sucha nice person 8D ANYWAY, lunch with THE NETBALL GIRLS today was awesome. senior im couldnt make it cause she had to stay in school till 3:30pm. ffffffftt! ill murder her teacher i tell youuu. so, went over to cavana and we had to parttttttt after that. some of the juniors had ptd at 6pm and i had dance practiceee. ive got homework! wednesdays the finals. soooo, yea. i have to get it in my head. but all went good! gee went back to school with me and watched us dance. pang sehhhh. she pang sehed me this year because of Osss D: but its okay! ill always have you in my heart gee! awwwww. sity's so sweet [:

im so tireddd. i need a day to catch up on my sleep. and. IM BOREDDD. im tired of studying alreadyyy. which reminds me, CHEMISTRY TOMORROW MORNING D: the agonyyy. oh well, at least i get practice! and, LITTLE NICKY'S ON LATER. blog later yall. xx

your love, so unconditional;

i feel like the luckiest girl

i miss you

and i would have stayed up with you all night,
had i known how to save a life
youre the perfect reason for me to stay♥ ♥

2007-08-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

i just saw myspace and its over. its over. its overrrr. im not gonna wait. december will JUST be for glo. BOYFRIENDDDD, WHERE ARE YOUUU. im so depresseddddd. ahhhh. (slits wrist) hah, crazy. ok, no. i did not literally slit my wrist. its just a descriptive emotion. what am i talking? AH. whateverrr. and today is just bull. i hate today. I HATE TODAYYYY. and last night. didnt dance today for Ttime but sha&illya did. and they did good. responds for talentime this year was awesome. thank God sha&i came up with the petition thing. thank us la dey! anywayy. where was i? oh. its overrr. ITS OVER. this will spread till tomorrow. someone just shoot me already.

im going off
goodbye

2007-08-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

reasons why i should shoot myself now
-im falling sick, i am sick already!
-i cant sleep in tomorrow D:
-social studies prelim is TOMORROW
-talentimes TOMORROW

bahhhh. im having a bad headache and my throats killing me. maybe i should stop singing so much BECAUSE I CANT SING(nudge FEY!) ok, no. im falling realllly sick. and glory's falling sick too. yes my dear? yes. anyway. my tagboards goneee ): now noone can taggg. sheesh. i need to repair my template! and thank God ive studied for ss prelims. ive been studying eversince i got home. stopped studying like an hour ago. i feel that its not enoughhhhh ): and i cant sleep in tomorrow because our papers in the morning. which means having to reach school at 0725. and im upsettt. and talentimes tomorrow but ive got the steps in my head already. YAY! im afraid i might screw up tho D: WISH ME(US) LUCK!

and you, music is for you to share. you DO NOT own music. especially the people bringing the music to us. you should just be grateful that he doesnt know you AT ALL. he'll think youre being such a bitch. bitch.

im going off. my sister is being an ass
someone call me and cheer me up!

cause youre one in a million

2007-08-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

hi. its been a very tiring day. and, it kinda got pissy
my two very special girls got back their olevels result and all i can say is, try your best the next time around okayyyy. ace it if possible! ~~im too tired to blog. ill blog tomorrow.~~ glo came over to my place today and my mom cooked noooodles for us for lunch/dinner. i was going crazyyyy. like, mad-crazy. bahaha! anyway, you, i dont care if you talk shit or whatever. youre awesome in all ways :)
i feel like a freak. bahaha!

blog post [/edited]

2007-08-12T20:00:00.000+08:00

hello. im sad. very sad. i miss singfest. i miss the feeling of being stuck in a moshpit. i miss not being able to oogle at hot people, particularly SHAUN! ): shut up. i know its crazy, i know theyre just celebrities, i know its just a one time thing. but we're sooooo going to see them when they come back again. at least IF they come back. no considering! its a CONFIRM-MUST-GO. you guys are prolly thinking we're insane. but we(i) dont care. ooooooh, the agony D: im sure the other three/four people who was at singfest with me feels the same way. i know ROXY is! and GEE! and S.CRYSTAL! davidddd? im sure he is too la huh DDDD:
oh and did i tell you we bumped into mel&company? yea, we did.
which, includes dear shikin. shikinnnnnn, are you feeling the insanityyyy? D:

anyway. i didnt go out today! ive been out like everyday alreadyyy. singfest on thursday, slept over at g's and back home at 2pm. showered. went out at 3pm, met matt ava to get their EP, then to yishun to meet parents to visit grandad and then over to cousin's to plan her wedding. only back home at 1am. slept for awhile and then up to use the laptop. slept at 4am, woke up at 7am to get ready for jam(which i have to meet the others at 8am) so yes, i was late. met, breakfast-ed, taxi-ed, jammed. it was good. reaaaally good. met g after that to go town cause she had an interview. hung out till 5plus6 then went home. showered, studied, use the laptop, slept at 5am. i havent had enough sleep. thus resulting to me sleeping like a pig on a sunday. which reminds me,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARTYN!
YOU HAVEEEE TO COME BACK SOON.
SOMEONE MISSES YOU LIKE NOWORDSCANDESCRIBE 8D

ok, back. got up at 8 today cause my cat woke me up. DONT LAUGH. its not funny. annoying much. grrr. sooooo. woke up at 8, brushed my teeth, ate koko crunch and read the newspaper while the tv was on. now how bout that. i feel so free. i dont feel like going back to school tomorrow. i have tonnnns more to study. ive only started on socialstudies and chemistry )x i can feel the pressuree! hahaha. went on the laptop, again. and i got to talk to ___! bahaha. yessss, i dont miss him that much now. but i would later! haaaaa (: anyway, you CANNOT stop putting up vids okayyyyy. we really really REALLY like seeing you play, i do (: and yes youre recognised and youre awesome! everyone whove enjoyed watching you play knows that. xxxx!

ok. dinner. toys story is on now! run like the win bullseye. nyahaha
youve got a friend, youve got friend in me lalalala
ok. bloggggg later. or tomorrow!
rockstar

2007-08-11T01:10:00.000+08:00

please note that the content typed in CAPS in this entry means mood is:
AESTHETIC and insert excitement in EVERY FUCKING LINE!

HELLO. LIKE WTF MOTHER FUCKING SHIT OF THE WHOLE WORLD. I AM STILL PSYCHED ABOUT THE WHOLE SINGFEST SHIT! IT WAS THE BOMB YO! YOU GUYS PROBABLY GOT THE WHOLE PICTURE OF THE WHOLE AWESOME SHIT THING AT SINGFEST FROM THE OTHER TWO FUCKING AWESOME GIRLS' BLOGS. BUT I DONT CARE. THIS IS MY SHARE, MY STORY \m/

EVERYTHING WAS FUCK AWESOME! THE GREAT SPY EXPERIMENT, ONE BUCK SHORT, CROWNED KING, COBRA STARSHIP, THE ACADEMY IS , GYM CLASS HEROES, AVENGED SEVENFOLD, THE NOISETTES, MXPX LAST BUT NOT LEAST HINDER. THE WHOLE MOSHING WAS JUST CRAZY. I DONT CARE IF SOME FUCKER LANDED ON ME (which is kinda giving me a concussion now) OR I WAS HIT RIGHT IN THE FACE. YOU CANT BELIEVE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE RIGHT INFRONT. I AM STILL CRAZY ABOUT THE WHOLE SIINGFEST THING. I CANT BELIEVE I WAS TEMPTED TO GIVE UP MY TICKET JUST BECAUSE OF MY STUPID MOOD SWINGS! I AM GLAD AND NOTHING CAN DESCRIBE HOW IM FEELING NOW. IT WAS BEYOND AWESOME! ITS JUST, FUCKINGSHITAWESOMEANDNOTHINGMORECANDESCRIBE. I AM TOO BUMPED TO BLOG ABOUT IT. I MEAN, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY!! GOD! PICTURES! ILL JUST UPLOAD THE FAVOURITE AWESOME ONES.

DEFINE AWESOME ; SHAUN!

OKAY. SO THIS IS THE HOT ONE. MY HOT ONE. \m/ COULDNT RESIST. DAMN HOT AH ! WHATS THE BEST PART? HE HAS A FUCKING NAVAL PIERCING! OK, MAYBE THATS NOT THE BEST. HE HELD ONTO MY HAND FOR LIKE, 50 SECONDS! BECAUSE HE CAME TO THE BARRICADE AND STOOD THERE LOOKING HAWT WHILE SINGING THE WHOLE VERSE OF SONG. AND, WHILE BEING OH SO HOT, HE HELD ONTO MY HAND FOR SUPPORT. NOTHING BEATS THAT. LUCKY ME, I KNOW! LIKE BITCH RIGHT? I DONT CARE. HES FUCKING HOT AND FUCKING SWEET. HES MINEEEE. ELLE.OOO.VEEE.EEE

SO THIS IS ANOTHER SHIT FUCK SEXY ASS. MEET GABE, GLORIAS LOVER THAT SHES GOING PSYCHED ABOUT. OKAY MAYBE NOT JUST GLORIA. HES HELL SEXY I TELL YOU. EVERYTIME HE MOVES, ITLL JUST TRIGGER YOU (the girls) TO SQUEAL LIKE A CRAZY BIMBO. F-K-I-N-G S-E-X-Y-! GO COBRAS!

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST. AND FORGOTTEN, THE HOTCUTESEXYAWESOMEMESMORISING WHATEVER HAVE YOU, WILLIAM BECKETT! HES ROXANES AND SHES PSYCHOTIC ABOUT HIMMM. LIKE TO THE MAXIMUM LIMIT OF CRAZINESS. ALL OF US WERE GOING INSANE! HES VOICE IS JUST SO, DIFFERENT. REALLY AWESOME THOUGH! HE MAKES US CRAZYYYYYYY LIKE, IDONTKNOW! GODDDDD. MELT AH MELT! ROXANE WAS EVEN WORSE!

SO THERE YOU HAVE SITYS SHAUN, GLORIAS GABE & ROXANES WILLIAM. JEALOUS MUCH? WE KNOW. GAAHHHHHHHH. omgod. im going crazy already.

SO THESE ARE THE FOUR AWESOME, CRAZY GIRLS BEING SQUASHED LIKE SARDINES OR EVEN WORSE! oh. and. a picture of us with SHAUN! GAH :D

this is for you rockstar! where are youuuuu. anyway. i must say, a big part of me well wish you were there. ahah! and hell yeah they sound better live! it was beyond madness.

like as if youd read this but who cares! this part is for you :)

AVENGED SEVENFOLDS SET WAS JUST CRAZYYYYY. PEOPLE GETTING SQUASHED. THERES SOME WHO LEFT. BARRICADES WERE BROKEN DOWN. PEOPLE WERE THROWN. TALK ABOUT THOSE BODY SURFING AND MOSHING. IT WAS CRAZY BEYOND MADNESS AND INSANITY. BUT THEY WERE HELL TERRIFIC! GATES, ZACKY, M. SHADOWS! GATES SOLO WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEE!! I CANT SAY ANYTHING OR PUT THE RIGHT WORDS TO DESCRIBE THE ATMOSPHERE. ALL THE WAKING UP AT 6AM JUST TO BE AT FORT CANNING AT 8AM AND ALL THE SQUASHING PAID OFF. THE SHOW WAS AWESOME, THE PERFORMANCE WAS GREAT, THE CROWD WERE TERRIFIC! (except for maybe a few motherfucking disrespectful bastards. i mean, you dont go F* M.SHADOWS! and then mosh and headbang to their songs. sheesh)

its 4am now. i have to be up in say, 3hours! yawwwwwwwwwwn. someones gonna be mad at me tomorrow :/ and i just realise that my tagboards gone! like, HELP

ok, tomorrow. no. today. later. argh, goodnight!

for more hot&awesome pictures to drool at please visit:

http://trulyroxy.livejournal.com/ and get jealous. hurhur

2007-08-07T19:40:00.000+08:00

cca commendation cum investiture today
i love my two girls(and colin) and
you cant do anything to stop me!
parents and sister came to school, much thanks

i cant concentrate or focus in class today
and thats cause im upset
im upset that someone didnt say goodbye before leaving
im upset that im starting to miss talking to onlyroxygloryknowswho
im upset that i dont know what im suppose to do
im upset that im going mad/insane/psychotic
just because of this. just because you caught me off guard
im upset that im not ready for the majors
which is in ONE MONTH
im upset that im not in a normal mode
i hear a roxy saying "girlfriend does not mean wife!"
i feel so dumb. i keep telling glo that, ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN
and yet, this. HAHA. whadya know
what a joke sity, what a joke
someone please press delete, right click & refresh me
if not, kindly press F4 for HELP
i need to be fixed

dont walk away

2007-08-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

im really proud of the guys from my class
for being so talented. they sound awesome putting
their music talents together and
i think you should listen to them
awesome head start!
chemistry was good, productive
baybeats was yet again, awesome
the best baybeats ever i must say
the atmosphere was just indescribable
the planes, the aura, the moshpit
everyone was just high on music
i dont understand why people want to end up fighting
after/when moshing. fucking shits. just mosh damn it
youre not suppose to fight. fucking losers
ive been saying fuck like its the new word
because i'm fucking pissed with a fucking fucker
who fucking bitches about me when i fucking
didnt do anything

whats the fucking problem?
i dont talk to avoid fucking conflicts with you
and now you want to fucking bitch about me
im sorry people dont fucking get along with you maybe
because they dont trust you. maybe because you fucking
lied. and is it my fucking fault that they want to come
talk to me about their fucking problems? is it my fucking
fault that the guys have a fucking problm with you?
do you even know what fucking situation youre putting
yourself into? why be somebody else when people could
actually get along with you better when you were your
fucking self

im sorry for the language but i just needed to rant
bear with me? i'm really sorry
quotes glory "does saying fuck actually make you feel better?"
yes, actually it does. a little. fuckingly honest

went to the petfarm today with BABAT and i want a dog
i knowwwww, i cant. but i fucking want a dog so bad!
husky would be awesome
im still frustrated
I NEED CHOCOLATES/COFFEE/COKE/FLEXIES OR
WHATEVER HAVE YOU THATLL RISE MY SUGAR LEVEL
CAUSE I DONT CARE ANYMORE

monday's school gonna start bad
i'm sorry

2007-08-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

waiting for your call, im sick, call im angry

call im desperate for your voice

listening to the song we used to sing

in the car, do you remember

butterfly, early summer

its playing on repeat, just like when we would meet

like when we would meet

cause i was born to tell you i love you

and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine

stay with me tonight

2007-08-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

everything's just not right today

everything's out of control,

everyone's getting so emotional

school's been fucked, i'm tired

a part of me is missing and

i'm too tired to even think about it

i dont know what i'm thinking

i dont know what i'm feeling

i dont know what i'm saying

i dont know what i'm doing

and i doubt you know

i just need to get hold of myself again

please, give me break. i'm sorry

what if I wanted to fight?

beg for the rest of my life

what would you do?

you say you wanted more

what are you waiting for?

i’m not running from you

i miss you

2007-07-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

i'm so worn out because i didnt sleep the
whole night yesterday. well, i did
for like, one hour before time to get ready
for school. i couldnt sleep! at all. but the
staying up was fun. singing in the middle of
the night/early morning till my throat gets all sore
and staying up makes me listen in class the next day!
like, weird. cause i only got exhausted after school

i love my new auto-jukebox but it seems
to be playing emo songs these days
i shall repair and make it okay again with
extra tender loving care
i need it to be okay again because its seems to be the
only thing that keeps me going everyday

2007-07-30T02:25:00.000+08:00

for someone special

in the moonlight, your face it glows

like a thousand diamonds, i suppose

and your hair flows like the ocean breeze

not a million fights could make me hate you

youre invincible. yeah, its true

its in your eyes where i find peace

xoxo;

wonderwall

2007-07-29T11:47:00.000+08:00

hi prvious post is abit screwed up, SORRY! anyway,
i had the time of my life with the girls yesterday
i dont know how am i gonna do after they graduate :(
enjoyed every minute except for the part where
we had to bump into some jockboy who i really not
want to see. i'm sorry i got so pissed girls!
anyway,
the simpsons was awesome, a must-watch!
but if youre the
finds-every-lil-thing-around-you-lame kind then,
DONT WATCH.
dinner at new york new york's after that
by which roxane had to most pityful meal. silly girl
bahaha. but gloria and i had the most SINFUL meal ever!
we're gonna get fattttt baybehh. fantabulous :)
shopping after that. well, sort of
i'm a happy girl

i had a very cheeky boy talking to me last night
and he was driving me crazy

out with my sister today, i think?
or maybe to get my homework done! i'm so screwed
prelims are like in 22 days. crap

and someone needs to learn to call me EARLIER
cause i'll be wayyyye asleep by then you know :)

lets light up the town, scream out loud

XOXO

2007-07-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman		95%
Green Lantern		85%
Supergirl		80%
Wonder Woman		75%
Robin		72%
Batman		65%
The Flash		65%
Spider-Man		60%
Hulk		60%
Catwoman		35%
Iron Man		35%

You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero are you?" quiz...

omgod, i'm a man! =/
now we know why roxane loves me so much
and that she's a fan :D

i'm hell bored you cant imagine how many episodes
of family guy i've watched. here's some:

i like playing tictactoe with you because
its the only game with Xs and Os

2007-07-24T17:38:00.000+08:00

i'm sick. mum would be discharged today. netball tomorrow
and motherfuckers should really STOP using ~~people's~~MY wireless
stupid neighbours.
anyway. i spent the whole day today trying to look for some
random cds and ended up watching the recordings when i
was born. i want to be a baby again. where i dont have to do
anything and people around just pamper me :)

here are some of the pictures i took when paused, enjoy

thats mummy
love you mummy :)
look! thats me! the puny me! :D

check out my nostrils! so smalllll! :D
oh! thats my sister who is currently 27!

the scary thing's that,

she looks like a duplicate of me then =/ awwww, i knew she loves me! :D
the best grandparents i ever had

thats the family :)

sister's damn pampered since young laaa!

thats all yall!

♥

2007-07-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

hieeeeeeeeeeee. SO i havent been blogging
and it feels gooooood. lol. but not using the computer
for three whole days seem like its been a gazillion. years.
ok, no. too exaggerating. haha. but yea, my hands are itching.
so..

i
have
myself
a
FAVOURITE
TRANSFORMER! :D
ahahahahha. okok. ogling about it isnt really helping
but. I HAVENT OGLED IN A REALLY LONG TIME!
hahahah! and G loooooves making me blush
but really, REALLY. i got over THAT fact already :)

i'm sick! today. thats why i skipped chem class this
morning. barfed like. three times and it was all, YELLOW
hahahaha! damn cool ah. look like scrambled eggs :D
been away to the hospital lately cause mum got in
she was admitted thursday and operation on friday
thank God, everything went smoothly :) amen!
GET WELL SOON MUMMY!
aunty came to visit mum today with uncle and cousin
went for dinner at sakae after that
damn the tuna smelt like my kitten's food =/
i couldnt eat much cause i didnt have the appetite
& the smell. but the salmon was darrrrrrn good

training tomorrow and four thirty
gloria, junction, four fifteen
gaaaaah. i hope i'll still be alive.
or maybe i have nine lives too! :D

headache. fever. stomach. GOODNIGHT!

2007-07-17T18:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAPTAIN OF MY HEART, AMANDA ONG!
youll ~~always~~ forever be my favourite defender and i love youuuuuu :)

i like today. todays all study study & study
talk about getting motivated for the coming majors
i am super terrified. how? baahhhh
but school is fucked! damn fucked. i cant believe
they cancel things without consulting the students
i know. who are we to be consulted first. STILL
things dont turn out good cause people were not
interested the previous time. but WE are. like totally
you knowww. idiot. they should really be more
considerate at times ah. damn effffffffffed up
do you guys realise, there hasnt been ANY
performance until now. at all. like usually there are
skits or something. i bet the seniors are thinking our
school is such a loser school now ah. and lucky that
theyve already graduated. gosh, i'm actually nagging
or so you call it, WHINING. so annoying. haha
and to my dear class boys, i. am. not. emo. you shit
tell me, when is sity not okay and does she emo?
sityyyyy's machooooooooo :D yes? YES

quarter final's tomorrowwwwww.
OH OH! AND AND AND. N LEVEL MALAY
ORAL IS TOMORROW!
like, ffffffff. howw?? i cant speak malay! fluently!
kami, warga negara singapura.
sebagai rakyat yang bersatu padu
thats the singapore pledge! wthellllll
this is psychotic, bodoh. BAH

2007-07-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

i was so bored that i decided to read my archives.
i couldnt stand it but laugh at practically every line
of the post. the english, the grammar, the details
it was all oh so childish and pathetic
yes, i find my past self very pathetic. omgod,
the embarrassment. now, i just cant be bothered
youll probably go to my archives now(if youre bored)
and laugh your butt out. go ahead. i dont mind at all
i was young&dumb

someone rescue this poor soul. she's bored to death
and she FINISHED HER ENGLISH WORK

why are all the pretty/HOT boys so far away?
theyre like 2372381828362 metres at the other
end of the world

everybody sing like its the last song you will ever sing

2007-07-16T15:33:00.000+08:00

youre way to beauuuuuutiful girl
thats why it will never work
you had me suicidal suicidal
when you say its over
bahaha. sorry. its on the radio now.

HI! i just got home
NO MORE FNN! I DONT HAVE TO STAY ANYMORE
because whyyyyy? i finished & handed it in
FINALYYYYYYY
sorry i havent been updating. i dont like the computer
dont ask why. so pms today! i'm sorry
i bet i pissed everyone off luh. hah. sorryyy
im tired, my body is aching from yesterday. and i. feel. fat.
i think im fat. i know i know. TYPICAL FOR GIRLS to say this
but no, seriously. im FAT :(
im not gonna eat during recess and lunch but ill eat dinner
depends. if i eat lunch then no dinner. if no lunch, then dinner

SO.
netball on sunday. AND WE WON YALL
won all except the last game. still! we got to second round
quarter finals on wednesday. venue: ? time: 7pm
COME AND SUPPORT IF YOU WANT
i was positioned for wingA, centre, goalA
it felt good. playing again. but my stamina was so bad :(
was totally worn out the whole day after that
went home, waited waited & waited. was suppose to meet
sarah but didnt happen. sigh. was so bored until sean
came to the rescue! NOT. i totally rescued his butt instead
went for dinner at cavana then met sister to get
chocolate waffle! mmmmmmmmm
SEAN KIM! i. am. so. gonna steal your volcom bag

you can be my cinderella ella ella eh eh eh
haaaa. sorry. radio. remix sial! hah. random
wheres my surprise phone callsssss? :(
pms bodohhhhh. argh. study ah! bye

the feel good drag

2007-07-14T13:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE TAN HUIPING!

EXPECTO PATRONUM! [ratings 5/10]
watched harry potter yesterday and twas good!
really really. its good. not awesome. just, good
i prefer the previous's screenings. the graphics
were really good though and the movie's kinda sad
expected more fighting, flying wands, this & that
but there wasnt much. GO WATCH IT YOURSELF
i think harry looks like tariq. dont you think so zat?!
AND CHO CHANG IS UGLY. her face looks, flattened
i.do.not.like.CHO

its so irritating how life is so mundane now
its always the same thing every single day
i want excitement! more & more excitement!
why does it seem that theres so many things
that you want to do but you get so turned off

will you wait for me?

2007-07-14T09:39:00.000+08:00

this goes to glory glory glory gloriaaaaa
if youre reading this, this is for you

you dont have to be loud to be heard,
because people hear you, i do
you cut me off when i'm talking to you
sometimes you know :)
you dont have to feel weird about how
you drees, because youre hot and you
cant imagine how other people envy you
and besides, YOU LOOK GOOD IN ANYTHING
and its also kinda sickening to see everyone wearing
the same thing/dress the same way all the time
you dont have to be THERE whenever &
wherever you are
i bet three quarter of the people out
there knows nothing about me. shit zilch
i dont care whether you listen to bubblegum pop
or avenged sevenfold,
because i love you the way you are
so what if youre called a bimbo?
just know, you happen to be a VERY SMART
bimbo. why, thank you
now, dont say i dont understand you
and youre not weird for goodness sake!
youre awesome the way you are and people
love you for being you ♥

2007-07-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

you know what, i still dont know what to name the kitten
i feel like naming it, MARIE from the astriocats cause
i've been watching it. but what if its a MALE?! Godddd
its sleeping like a pig now -.-

HARRY POTTER'S TODAY. like ohmg!
someone's gonna have to date me out sooon
i've been coming home straight after school lately
and thats really awesome :)

however, today's not really my day. damn pms today
i've got a date tomorrow. yesssss
i'm gonna sleep. BYE

tonight, you are everything

2007-07-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

today's wednesday. wednesday = school starts late

school starts late = sity sleeping like a pig

but i didnt. met zatty for breakfast! :)

i was late though. supposed to meet at 7

but we met at 8 instead. hah!

went to school and found a kitten! in class!

my class girls rescued the poor shit from a very big,

fat, horrible, annoying, violent, abusive, fucking ugly,

i-hope-doesnt-have-9-lives black cat

the kitten's damn adorable i ~~wish~~want to bite its ears

its with me now. at home. cause i'm taking care of it

dont worry, i'll boil it in soup tomorrow

morning for breakfast :D

eh shit, i dont even whether is it male or female

what if its, GAY?

so. we didnt have netball today, dont ask why

FNN after school and then chocolate waffle at central!

meet, kitten. i bet you feel like biting it too

ROAR!!

2007-07-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

new layout!
its so corny and i dont like the type of font for the dates and my updates.

but i like it! cause its COLOURFUL. haha :)

someone's on the phone with me nowww

n levels oral TODAY

i shall not say anything because it sucked. i think?

i'm not gonna say anything

pictures from yesterday's camwhoring

one

two

three

four

fivePEACE, FEY!

uh huhhhhh

i'm HOT since young

wahahaha!

2007-07-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

hello. i just got home and i'm hell tired
3 whole free periods today and was
camwhoring like crazy bodohhhh
had fnn after school and more fnn tomorrow
NETBALL ON WEDNESDAY. like, awesome!
N level's english oral tomorrow! i hope i'll do well
i'm tired of this skin, i wanna get a new one
i wanna change my
-blog skin
-friendster background
-handphone theme

i've done my homework in school today & i'm
gonna study for geog test later
i'm getting use to this. this whole studying hard
thing

HELLO FUCKTARD! I MISS YOU!

when youre gone, i'll be waiting for you

2007-07-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

i've studied chem and physics today. i'm such an angel :)
hah, so not! prolly cause the major exams are coming
thats why i'm starting to study my butts off already
i dont know soooo manyyy things, its countless
i've listed down the things that i was unsure and you
cant believe how long the list goes. but its all gonna
be covered. i'm gonna make myself cover them at least
serve myself right for not paying attention/sleeping
during lessons all the time
and i still dont know much of maths. i need help, HELP!
my math teacher might as well use alvin or kean to
teach us. oh i forgot, he already did
seriously, i need help. NOW. math is imporatnt like sex!
ok no. sex is not THAT important. stilllll. i need help A.S.A.P

i'm representing pasir ris in netball on the 15th july, kallang
so is glory, s.crystal, s.wati, s.im, s.huiping and some other people
come and support us? or at least WISH US LUCK YALL
i bet i cant run as fast or play as well anymore
i'm all rusty, i think!

and talentime might not happen this year. SCREW THE NEW PLAN
all of us are so gonna petition for it to NOT not happen

porridge for dinner, i'm on a strike!
a diet strike. like it or not. HAH

chisel my heart out of stone, i give in everytime

2007-07-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD
HAPPY EARTH DAY TO ALL!
glory's sure hell happy about today
and so is rox. whyyyyy. because on earth day,
everyone wears GREEN and it falls on 070707
cheers for the awesome day!

chemistry lesson this morning. one word, PRODUCTIVE
i learned so many stuffs about chemicals today
and atoms. and chemical bonds. and intermolecular force
breakfast at kfc after that then back home. wanted to
drop by glory's but i fell asleep and was late to meet rox!
but i still met her, ahaha. met, did work, ate, talked, EMOed
well, not me. she did. dont ask why
sean came to meet me then off to VIBES! competition
it was oooookay. i've got no comments about the others
but hai sing was not bad, theyre one of the good ones
i'm not being a typical school supporter but i'm speaking
general. theyre not bad considiring the ONLY SECONDARY
school competitor, KUDOS :)

SO, rampage was yesterday, today & tomorrow
went with glory and bumped into a few other people!
what can i say? it was gooood, great, awesome
rika, a vacant affair and west grand boulevard
theyre all gooood. i'm really happy singapore has
such talents. so what if you dont make it till billboards?
YOU CAN PROVIDE US PEOPLE WITH GOOD,
AWESOME MUSIC. support local bands! rock on

LOVE EARTH, GO GREEN

2007-07-07T14:13:00.000+08:00

i'm upset
i'm pissed
i'm angry
i'm frustrated
i'm disgusted
i'm fucked up
i'm disappointed

BY YOU, friend
thanks ah

i'm going out. bye

2007-07-05T18:45:00.000+08:00

I. AM. BORED.

save me

2007-07-04T01:01:00.000+08:00

OMGOD! like what in the worrrrrrld
i wish i could stamp COPYRIGHT on everything
@#$%^^$#@#$%^&*(*&amp;#$%^%$#$%^
&*&#$%^&*()(*&^%$$%^&*&^%^!!!
#$%^&*($%^&*($#$%^$%#@#^&*!!!!!

skip that, fast forward to recent updates
went out with SINGL3S! on monday, YOUTH DAY!
pictures will come later, SOON. no, some are
already on our friendster
God, we were so random, you cant imagine the stares
you cant believe how random we were cause
we went to KBOX. like hell yeahhhh
we are so crazy, so random, so psychotic that
you cant have enough of us. wahahahahah!
ok no, it was really fun. AWESOME IN FACT
probably the last outing before evryone starts
mugging like there's no tommorow
thanks for the AWESOME day girls,
LOVE YOU BOTH LOADSSSSSSSSSSSS

i should really name my son, sunny
and my daughther, cloudia :)

school started on tuesday, today. no, yesterday
school's just been blearghhh except for the company of
friends and of course school work that makes you busy.
school is great but not when you dont have
anything to do, nothing new to learn and youre
not given anything to do but to stare up and
count the cicaks on the ceiling
went home after F&N and was thinking of making today
a productive day. BUT, my auntie's mother passed
away (no, not my grandmom)

so, mother & i had to go over to simei to pay our respects
have you guys ever seen me in a tudung?! HAAAAAA
i use to wear it okay! when i was younger, to
religious classes and i look good! haha
oh wells, tomorrow's sister's & dad's turn to go simei!

so here i am now back from simei, really tired and upset
tomorrow's WEDNESDAY! sleep innnnnnnnnnnnn
GOODNIGHT

this time, i will be listening

the chance to miss

2007-06-29T15:33:00.000+08:00

hi. i'm in school now! ineedafuckinglife
fnnfnnfnnfnnfnn. its drivinggg me crazayyyy
and why am i blogging now? cause i give up!
no ah. not really. I WISH! break uh break :)
seriously man, i should have taken art instead

gee&rox are having mock now. ALLTHEBEST! :D

oh look! its raining. yayyyy
its been hot the whole day. i'm so random
and this is due to sudden elapse of insanity

oh. and i watched charlie chaplin yesterday

ok shhh. shall go back to work. NOW

2007-06-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

nothing interesting have been happening lately
except that today's thursday & we're gonna miss
someone bad

~~piercings~~ aha. (:
retail therapy in a way
i needed it anyway
as in, the retail therapy

and you, ive tried my best. i told you i missed a good
friend, i told you i missed talking to you.
but you had to have that big, fat ego of yours.
have it your way.

goodnight

with arms wide open, under the sunlight
welcome to this place, i'll show you everything.
with arms wide open, now everything has changed
i'll show you love, i'll show you everything.

2007-06-25T18:00:00.000+08:00

i'm hell bored and what did my sister sent me to do?
a survey. just because i was annoying her. haaaaaaa
thanks

1. Name someone who made you smile today?
-zatty (:

2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
-in school, handing in holiday assignment

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
-talking to roxane about banging her hair

4. What is something that happened to you in 1991?
-i was out on 22nd of february (:

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
-i can feel the pressure

6. How many different drinks did you drink today?
-3

7. What color is your hairbrush?
-black & brown

8. What was the last thing you bought?
-chocolate waffle

9. Who was the last person you kissed?
-you dont want to know

10. What color is your front door?
-maroon

11. Where do you keep your change?
-in my pocket

12. What's the weather like today?
-cold, awesome

13. What is the best ice cream flavor?
-b&j's chocolate fudge brownie

14. What is something you are excited about?
-for the next school vacation to come

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
-last year, christmas

16. What size shoe do you wear?
-8, 9 or 10

17. Are you random?
-when i'm bored and hyper

18. Do you want to cut your hair?
-i just had my hair cut

19. Do you talk a lot?
-hell yeah

20. Does your screen name have an "x"
-no

21. Do you know anyone named Martin?
-martin no, martyn yes

22. Are you ticklish?
-yes, a lot

23. Are you typically a jealous person?
-yes

24. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R"
-roxane

25. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "N"
-natasha

26. Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
-supergirl

27. What did the last text message you received say?
-i love you batgirl

28. Do you chew on your straws?
-when i have nothing else to do

29. Do you have curly hair?
-no

30. What is the next concert you're going to?
-rampage the durian

31. Whats your favorite color?
-orange

32. What is something you say a lot today?
-eh shut up la

33. What is the last thing you ate?
-ice cocktail

34. Have you seen the movie "Keeping mum"?
-yes

35. Do you have work tomorrow?
-no

36. Is marriage in your future?
-yea, thatll be nice

37. When was the last time you said "I love you" to someone special?
-november 2006

38. What should you be doing right now?
-homework!

39. Do you have a nickname?
-batgirl/kay

40. Are you a heavy sleeper?
-i think so?

41. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
-21 june 2007

42. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
-HEART

43. Did you cry today?
-no

44. Do you like someone right now?
-no

45. Are you currently playing any sports?
-netball

46. Last time you listened to music?
-i'm listening to it now

47. Last time you watched tv?
-forty five minutes ago

48. Do you miss someone right now?
-yes

49. What are you doing at this very moment?
-doing this damn survey

50. Who is the last person you talked on the phone with?
-supergirl

51. Are any of your friends going to fill this out?
-no. i dont think so?

so what do i do now?

2007-06-25T01:14:00.000+08:00

tuition, roxy then bugis
i'm so lazy to blog i bet you can tell like now
i cant believe we're left with 5 hours of the holidays
yayyyy. how fun. kinda good though
at least you dont get bored.
i'm gonna stay up till school starts

i just wanna break you down so badly
in the worst ways

i cant believe youre like that, i cant believe
you'd do such things. getafuckinglife

cause i fear i might break and i fear i cant take it
tonight i'll lie awake, feeling empty
i can feel the pressure its getting closer now
we're better off without you

2007-06-24T02:26:00.000+08:00

i cant stand all this nonsense, i'm gonna stop everything
i might be exaggerating but i know i'm not
you cant take advantage of me cause i wont let you
you cant be a jerk to me anymore cause i wont let you
you cant melt me anymore cause i wont let you
you cant talk to me anymore cause i wont let you
you cant be the only one i care all the time cause i wont let you
i wont let you have my heart to stab & squish it in
whatever way you please
i hope youre satisfied

i didnt go for rock for wayne.
i am currently feeling like killing somebody.
i've been cheated by a very trusted friend.
i can be a very rich shrink for troubled couples.
for details, please call 1900-sity-is-awesome.
i dont like it whenever you come in between
especially when you very well know whats the situation.
you dont like it when it happens to you
so i suggest you stop because this is not the first time.
i've had a long day, i'm going for a run tomorrow morning
i'm gonna watch onethreehill. goodnight. bye

explain to me this conspiracy against me

2007-06-23T03:39:00.000+08:00

PISCES:
you are certainly not lacking options right now,
so your primary task today will be to try to figure out
how to choose which one to take advantage of first.
the good news is that picking a path is not
an exact science - it is an art (an art you have mastered).
so just go with your gut, and pick the road that
promises you the biggest fulfillment.
avoid anything that looks like a shortcut.
be ready to put in your time to get to where you want to be.

like wthell? what in the world is this suppose to mean?
i dont even have a freaking plan ~~tomorrow~~ today
maybe i do. accompany/send/walk mother to the mrt station
in the morning at 7am cause she has to go to the zoo with her
students for excursion and after sending her, i'd go for a run
at the park. maybe trimming my hair tomorrow too. depends
but, thats all! i mean, thats practically it. right? YA!
but what does this got to do with picking the right path for
a fullfilling promise?!
ya, like cutting my hair would be a fulfilling promise. what,
cause its gonna grow longer faster?
or maybe going for a run in the morning is a fulfilling promise
cause it burns all the fats and calories that i've been gaining
since like, FOREVER. gosh, this is crazy
i know i shouldnt just read it off the surface
still, am i being paranoid or just superstitious?
omgoddddd, like whats wrong with me? PMS AH PMS!!!

NETBALL GATHERING/BBQ

22 june 2207

the day when everybody went wild and absolutely insane

so, netball gathering was good
minusing the fact that:
-none of the graduated seniors from year 2006 came
-senior im & senior wati couldnt make it cause
theyre in PENANG
-the only seniors from year 2007 who were present
was only fey, gee and me from which the TWO of them
had to leave like super early
-we were exactly at the place where i really didnt want
to be reminded of. like, totally. BAHHHH

it wouldve been AWESOME if not for all of the above

i feel emo, sigh

i didnt want to be emo there cause i couldnt care less
its not worth being down at an occasion like this
and i didnt want anyone to think that i'm not ok
cause i'd get over it, soon

still! juniors made me laugh and forgetting about
being at that particular place and all. i love them so much
i'm a grandmother of 9 different-colour-skinned girls
oh and also we had so much food that i thank
God for the graduated seniors from year 2005
(ps: i started the fire! :D) not only for the food luh
i also thank God they came cause i really miss them to bits! :)
i was really looking forward to seeing year 2006 seniors
ohwell, i really dont know where are they now
i really want to see them soon cause i miss them so :(

pictures will be updated soon. go bug kim jamie neubroneur!

oh yay, its 3:45 am HELLO WORLD!

goodnight

2007-06-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

i am feeling __________ (blank)

did anybody miss me when i was gone?

costa sands resort on wednesday-friday
but i was only there till thursday, today
leaving somehow was a good idea
netball bbq on friday!! yay yay yay yay
i miss the girls! and seniors! and juniors!
finally i get to see them tomorrow
though there might be ups & downs faced last time
you cant imagine how much they mean to me
theyre also the once that make parts of me complete
haaaaa. LOVE! i sound like a mummy :)

i miss it being how it use to be
all friendly, fun and kind. not like this
not when youre different and calls people
bitch, fuck or fat. who are you now? gosh
its so, unkind, rude and abnormal now
i am so annoyed by you that i couldnt
say anything. its all inside
waiting to come out. waiting to come
out like vomit. word vomit
its so easy for you because youre not the
one looking and hearing what you say or do
did you even hear yourself when you made promises?
please, embrace your thoughts for awhile
not for me. but for others

oh and you. you dont tell people that
youll be there for someone. and then stood her up
if you know youre gonna be like that
then i'd rather you not saying anything. goodbye

so long emokids

2007-06-20T03:18:00.000+08:00

though today didnt turn out as planned, i still loved it
aye g? dont emoooo k. you still have me! :)
although thats not much of a help.. i know.
but still! its meee
a day out with singl3s! well, sort of.
out with g the whole day! :)
hung out with veet & leon while waiting for roxaay
still! twas awesome. in a way. a good way
i didnt know the sky garden in suntec existed
its just sooooo nice. especially when its night
it is just. so. emo. hmm
shut up. i love my girls <3

my house is in a mess. i hate you!

i miss you, miss you so bad
i don't forget you, oh its so sad
i hope you can hear me
i remember it clearly
the day, you slipped away
was the day i found it wont be the same
i didnt get around to kiss you
goodbye on the hand
i wish that i could see you again
i know that i cant

i have to finish up homework before tomorrow
I LOVE MY MUMMY SOOOOOOOO MUCH!
no really, i do
she's like an angel. i love her oh so so much

goodnight lovelies
XOXO

2007-06-19T12:19:00.000+08:00

look what i got from email!

go? dont go? go? i dont know. but i want to!
but i dont know. i hate indecisiveness
and about my previous post, I AM NOT MARRIED
i thought i posted the pictures before
once. and. final. I'M NOT MARRIED
i want bangs. for my hair. again. i just unbanged my bangs
and now i feel like banging it again
should i bang? or shouild i not bang? help

2007-06-18T21:46:00.001+08:00

I. HATE. TODAY.

make me smile

2007-06-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

i really want to do things that i really dont want
can you just leave us alone? can you not be so annoying?
i love you, i use to. but i love her so much
and youre just being so shit to her
can you be more understaning? do you even have feelings?

i hate you for being like this

where is your girlfriends whenever you need them?
where would they be when you really need somone?

are they your girlfriends because theyre your girlfriends?
or are they your girlfriends because they know
what type of person you are and know that
you actually love them alot

thanks rox for hearing me out at 8 in the morning

i'm so sorry if i ever said anything that ever made you feel bad

or hurting you or whatsoever that is not good

or spoiling your morning sleep/nap

thanks for hearing me out. love you so much babe

i'm such a bad friend

thanks zatty for remembering

but i'm not leaving, i just cant

i'm sorry too if i've ever hurt your feelings

thanks sarah, for joining us for dinner

i'm sorry if i've ever hurt you too

i love my friends and i'm gonna stop everything

i love singl3s for happening

i love sarah for happening

i love zatty for happening

i love to be alive and i love to be around people

who knows me well and have no doubts about anything

i love to be happy. i want to be happy

2007-06-18T02:00:00.000+08:00

i'm back.
and. i. still. cant. sleep.
i was going through pictures
and look what i've found!

hello new blue dress
i love you new blue dress

HAWT ORANGE FLAMY CAR LA OI!
but driver couldnt fit :(

thanks gloria,
for taking my ass! -.-

before

and after
yes, its suppose to be a heart

my rabbit loves to canwhore too!
can-BIT. candid. aha! geddit? :D
ok, no

can you see me as a bride?no really, can you?

so those were really awesome pictures of my ass,
my wall, my dream car(alot bigger of course),
my rabbit and me modelling for some malay
bridal magazine last year. ahah. randommmmmm
and i'm suppose to wake up at 6.30am tomorrow
no. today. oh yay

i'm losing my grip and i'm in this thing alone